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January 2010
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Joey Sparkz [userpic]
TL;DR - Frostbite, you better read this whole thing! >:O

Well, couldn't sleep journal, so I thought I'd update. It's been a little bit, but a lot of stuff in my life has been fairly routine lately; work is work, but it's treating me well. I would certainly like to highlight how thankful I am of all of the really awesome friends I have in my life though. If it weren't for the fandom, I don't think I would have been able to find people so nice and awesome that I can related to so well!

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I've been thinking a little about myself, my persona, where I'm goin' in life and what not. I always seem to draw the same conclusion though, which strangely has me rather relaxed: Don't worry about stuff and keep living life taking each day as it comes. :) Since I'm such a natural worry wort, this has proven to work well in regards to how much I worry about work and my success in my career *chuckle*

I really do like my character, mr pikawolf, since he's been with me since the beginning with the help of Oliver (who I miss very much.. where has he gone to?). It means a good deal to me on a few levels- a combination of Pokemon and another poke-furry that I met in 2004 (has it really been 5 years?!) got me into the fandom and.. well.. changed my life! So I think he'll always mean a lot to me. I wonder, though, if maybe there are some other totems or animals I might relate to inside on a different, though equally important, level. I could never imagine being anything that wasn't a canine, though.. that much I know for sure!

Dogs, wolves, and all other manner of 4-legged woofwoofs: I love the loyalty, companionship they portray. It really means a lot to me, and I like to feel I'm similar to that. I don't really call anybody I just meet a friend, yannow? I have to know and feel that there is a good, emotional connection of some kind to somebody before I'll call them a true friend. Once I find a friend in somebody though, I will try my best to be the best companion you'll have. ^^

I'd say one of the only things that wouldn't necessarily match up would be that I know I have some trust issues. I don't forgive easily if somebody hurts me, and prefer to be alone rather than with somebody I don't completely feel comfortable with. Kind of thinking of 'lone wolf' that has overcome some of his isolation and trust issues, but still prefers to avoid conflict and isolate himself from people that don't work well with him.

Regardless of all that, I am glad that I've made some great friends that have helped me discover new parts of who I am, and help me express those parts of myself; I really enjoyed meeting so many new people at MFM, opening with them right away and just really diving into friendships! What's different about that, and the people you run into in every day situations, is that I know that there is a very high chance that anybody I meet at these events has a ton in common, and are very nice and loving people.. =) It just makes me feel good to know that there are a lot of people out there that care, and that help ME to care!

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I'm very excited for MFF 2009 this year! I'm hoping to have my new fursuit, but if not there's always Cyclone to run around in again :P Even though I have been very excited for most things regarding the fandom, this convention in particular weilds a much stronger interest from my heart because of MFF 2008. This was, of course, the first furry convention I'd ever attended, and was yet another turning point in my personal happiness and progression! It really helped me open up, realize that there are some really great people out there to connect with, and since then I've been more open about myself to others and made some very important friendships.

Who else is going to MFF? I really hope I get to see as many of you as possible, for those reading still :P It would mean a lot to have ya give me a hug or two if you see me, for those that I haven't met, and come get to know me. :)

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*sighs contently* It's been a really good few weeks lately for me. I don't think of my work as just my 'work' anymore.. it really means a lot more to me. I am so thankful.. so so thankful for the opportunities I've been given, not only while on the job but just the fact that I've gotten myself into such a great place. They care about me, help me spread my wings and make changes.. learn new systems.. really be a driving member of the team.

There's only one member of the IT Team I haven't been able to really connect with, though, and that's Aaron. He's so 'lunch and pail', come in work and leave, and doesn't seem to have a huge scope as to the path of the IT Dept as a whole, but only what's put in front of him. It's okay though, he's a great worker, and seems to connect well with at least one of the people there.

It's a little troublesome for me personally, just because of how much I really love this company but how I can't seem to get more of a relationship with the guy. Seems like we only exchange passing fancies whenever we see each other, and it really doesn't go further than that unless it's business related. I dunno. I'm just one of those people that like to feel accepted by those around me.. *nod*

My boss gave me such a great review earlier this month ^_^; He says I'm his little success story to his upper management, and is really happy to have me around.. We stayed late the other night talking a little bit, working on some stuff and ate some pizza, and we were able to connect and bond a little more. :) I really appreciated that time. I think he's really thankful to have me there to help him manage and improve some of the current IT procedures and needs, and come up with ways to help impliment new ones that help the business and customer satisfaction.

For those of you techies out there, one thing we do very differently in our environment right now is everybody is allowed local administrator rights on all of their systems. It's bizarre- I've never been in an environment like that before I started working here. Thankfully, as with many of the other policies and procedures that I've had a chance to improve since I've started working, we're all working toward a new way to control access to our assets including removing local admin rights from our remote sales and corporate employees! This will be really nice because then I won't have to see anymore systems with freakin' Limewire, and infections won't be able to propogate as easily.

Changes are coming for us though, as always with a company merger. There may be a chance for me to really secure a permanent position as as software analyst- there will be a need for an SAP and Siebel primary point of contact in the IT Dept. in the Minneapolis office. Because my interest really lies more on the software side, I've expressed to my boss that if nobody in the senior IT staff decides to jump on that band wagon, that I would be happy to be trained to support and program SAP forms and functions. If I got that opportunity.. there would be nowhere for me to go but up!! Of course, in lieu of that, there has been talk of adding a new roll to the Help Desk as a Lead / Supervisor position; my supervisor tells me that me and one other person are the prime candidates for the job!

So we'll see what happens. :) Either way, I've been told I'm doing such a great job, and it just makes me feel so good and motivated to keep doing the best that I can while I'm at work! I've taken responsibility for so much there already.. simply out of my passion and desire to learn and grow, and my skills for organization and process management. Example- I'm completely in charge of the Master Image used for all corporate, sales, production and resource computer systems; nobody else touches it. And I have to update it again actually before our National Sales Meeting 2010 in January next year (this is when we'll remove local admin capabilities ^.~).

Additionally, I manage a few enterprise applications used throughout the entirety of the corporate environment, including the Webroot server and the Faronics server we have in place; I like to be involved with IT Security. I also revised the new hire process that was used in IT to be a lot more streamlined.. upgraded the imaging techniques being used in IT (Windows Deployment Services blows; Symantec Ghost is rockin').. am the primary point of End-User contact for SAP-related questions or technical issues (currently, and temporarily), and work closely with the brother-company's Help Desk supervisor to facilitate any needs they may have in the Minneapolis office.. :)

I guess I just really appreciate all of these opportunities. I really wish I could say some of my friends were having as much luck as I am with my job / career, but I could certainly name a couple of people that I hold very close to my heart that seem to be struggling a bit.. I need to find a way to lower my bills or get a raise soon so I can at least feel like I'm capable of helping them more if they needed it. *nods*

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Yeah, it's 6:14AM and I haven't been able to sleep yet tonight. I'm a little tired, but I really caught my second wind a bit ago and decided I just wanted to sort out some of my feelings and thoughts. :) I realize this is a very long entry, and to those that have come to be annoyed by such things I'm sorry- I hardly ever post, however, and hope that might compensate for something.

Just listening to music now, feelin' sort of like a zombie heh. I may try to lay down soon and get some rest. I hope Wyn doesn't have too much of a hangover tomorrow because of the picnic, and that I can get some good sleep /quickly/ for the event tomorrow. I have a feeling we'll be there a little later *chuckle*.

To my friends: Take what you need from me.. I will always give myself to you *hugs*. To everyone else, here's wishing you well too!

- Joey -

Current Mood: amusedAmused
Current Music: The Goo Goo Dolls - Stay With You
Comments

its good to have a happy Joey :)

*hugs* Just as good to have a cheery wolfy :) *hot cocoa* !

It's good to see you update once in a while. :P We've been LJ friends for a while now, but I don't feel like we talk much unless you comment on my entries!

I'm jealous of you guys over in the midwest and all your cons. :o We get like...one here, aside from RainFurrest [I think?] which I don't do. Next year's AFF should be my first con if we can swing it! Hopefully will be able to go with alcyione and her husband. I'm excited.

I'm glad your job is going well, it sounds really great. :) You must be doing something right, keep up the good work!

Eep ^^ It's great to talk to ya, and yeah we definitely should do more to try to keep in touch; I'm usually always available on messengers >.> *chuckle*

But yeah, I don't post nearly enough I suppose. When I do, it all just kinda comes out like this hehe. And btw, I've only been able to plan for 2 cons this year :P Hehe but you're right, they all seem to be here, and south / east of here for a good majority of the cons :P

*offers ya hugs* Thanks for the kind words; I'll try to keep doin' my best ^^

Well it's always good to see my friends in good spirits~ :3


Glad you're so optimistic!

Winail <3 Thanks for the fun this weekend; it was, as always, really great being able to see ya and hang out :D

Be good :P *wags his finger*

No promises my friend. I still have fox in me :U *evil laugh*

1. Thank you for the lil breaks in the post.
2. Glomp
3. If you don't get your suit by MFF, your gonna have to fight over cyclone with Taiko. I think he is stronger willed then you =P

A) Alphabetical bullets > numerical ones
B) *snug* :P
C) Can't wait for MFF...! *squee*

\m/ Green Team \m/

Interesting. Do go on... :P